three o’clock in the morning,still up,staring into the darkness
sleep eludes,your body tired,numb
why?does God really exists?If so..why?
the emptiness, a dull ache..so loud it echoes through the corridors
of your soul
a reminder that you are alone
“get out of your room,bath,walk..for God’s sake do something!”
if only they knew..
your thoughts wander,you argue and rationalize with yourself
are you really needed in this world,will someone even miss you?
you look at your wrist,maybe the blood gushing out will be an act of cleansing,
as u escape this empty world
or maybe pills will do..or a gun,anything..
your thoughts wander,your mind in turmoil
but you are wrong,you have no idea how devastating your absence would be
the void which will be left,never to be filled because there can only be one of you
the guilt,self blame to be carried by your loved ones..
the questions,so many questions,so many “what ifs” and “if only”
i just want to say hang on a little bit longer
th sun..though hidden by clouds will appear
even after the coldest and harshest of winters,comes spring..a season of life
new beginnings and hope
reach out to somebody..someone will respond
with the warmest hug,a smile,nod or just comfortable silence
a gesture enough to let a ray of sunshine in your bleak world
someone was in your same exact position..they hanged on..
and they turned out alright
so please hang on